“ABG’s in 5 Steps”

Your choice at the fork

I had just created for a little bit this morning and I start transitioning to get the boys out and have some time outside together for our AM adventure. This morning, also a morning after a job offer last night that feels like a fork decision.

Prove or Play.

RN or CRNA.

Status Quo or Moon.

I went toed a virtual CRNA program information session last night for one of the schools I’ve been looking at going. Honestly, I went hoping I’d feel something. Either ignited and excited or 100% confirmed in saying no.

P.s. I’ve never needed a 100% confirmation for anything.

See, you know you.

Listen to your body.

I got that job offer yesterday and it was something other than pursuing anything to do with CRNA school. So, like I said, a fork in the adventure road. I mean, CRNA school will “always be there” but this still feels like a pretty defining decision moment. And I tell you what, my ego is hanging on by the tiniest strength of my pink pink pinky.

Pretty solid in what path I’m planning on taking but there’s still the smallest wif of a linger.

I go to check my email real quick and see, “ABGs in 5 Steps” and my body immediately says, “I’m out”.

It’s not mine. For sure not right now and honestly, it doesn’t seem like ever. But I never say never.

Listen to your body.

So I got on here to write this note.

To also remind you that you don’t have to know. You don’t have to know a million or 100% about something before you jump.

JUMP!

That’s typically my M-O. Even jumping all-in to this CRNA adventure without really looking anything up and moving my whole life to Maine when I could have stayed here for the same thing.

Or better, now that I know.

Yeah.

Feeling like I needed the extra confirmation is the tell, for me, in this CRNA adventure.

That’s not me.

I’m jumping somewhere else.

Come with!

I think life gets to be more fun than we’re making it. I think it gets to be filled with more joy and excitement, with more of what lights us up, and how our creativity wants to be expressed. How our spirits want to be shared and move in this world loving, being with, and supporting one another.

Let her out.

Let her out,

let her out,

let her out.

Listen to your body, it’ll tell you a lot more a lot quicker. And without attachment. I felt led to go to Maine. All the doors seemed to be opening with that opportunity when other doors were closing.

I needed Maine though.

Just not for the reasons I thought.

So we’re learning and moving forward. That’s what Life offers - opportunities to learn and continue getting crystal clear about where we really want to go, move, create, build, and who we want to be in this life.

Let Life be your teacher.

Let it show you where you’re playing small. Listen to your body, let it tell you where to move next. Like somehow automatically out of your boarding line when it all of a sudden gets delayed and back over to the fella at the restaurant just to tell him you think he’s cute.

Because, fun!

And play!

And why not’s?!

Because life gets to be what you want and it’s all made up so why not make it up?!

Go for it.

Whatever it is on your heart to create, CREATE IT!

Crate it without expectation but maybe simply for the purpose of it being created.

And then go from there. Not from some ironed out 100% fail-proof plan but from a fun one! I know easier said than done, I’ve been down the rabbit hole of survival mode too.

This is the journey of coming back from that.